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I am so sick to death of always having the thought about my weight and wanting to loose it. I feel like I've been at it forever and I'm over the struggle. I want to be at my goal and I want it now. I'm sick of people saying "Nothing happens over night, it's a long process" like FUCK OFF SERIOUSLY.

I need to re motivate and become the strictest I have ever been, because I refuse to spend another summer being one of these girls that wish to laze around in a bikini but instead choose to cover up because they feel gross and fat. Every year my family spends two weeks in the summer at the beach so that is one big motivator.

I also feel that now because I have announced this to the world (Even though it will most likely never get read by anyone) I will feel even more compelled to stay strong.

My ideal weight is 50. I think that is slightly below the healthy weight range for my height but in all seriousness I don't give a shit.

Lovely now that's off my chest I might ponder over a few pictures that give me inspiration.
Oh and for my sake I will update on my progress, because it kinda feels nice putting my thoughts on paper (theoretically.)
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few of my purchases...

I think I have gone a little crazy and I still have 10 days in the UK to do some retail therapy. But saying that, instead of spending alot on a few things I have actually been able to find stuff I like and its been on sale!

I bought these two perfumes the other day, I have really liked them for ages and finally I bought them both! Princess - by Vera Wang has more of a vanilla tone and Chloe is really light and feminine. The sales assistant also gave me a few samples of some other popular scents one was Chloe 'Intense', 'Flowerbomb' by Viktor and Rolf (This one is made in Holland so I'm excited to try it) and 'Pure' by Givenchy.

I also bought these cute clog slippers. Handy for keeping my tootsies warm in winter.

More photos coming soon I've just been a bit slack.

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Some more images from my trip...

The first image is from a music festival I went to in The Hague. It was loads like the Aussie festival Park Life but smaller and free!

Still can't believe how openly people smoke weed in Holland. It's like, everywhere. You can even buy your own marijuana plant starter kit.
The last image was taken from a canal boat in Amsterdam. It was such a glorious day with perfect weather. Before this I checked out Anne Frank's house, I found it really sad because I'd just started to read the diary and it described the house perfectly so it was weird to be walking through the actual place she was writing from...

Had a bit of a walk through Kalverstraat ( the main shopping strip in Amsterdam) but I didn't really have enough time to have a good look so hopefully I get to come back and have a bit more of an explore!

Next Tuesday I leave for England. I am SO ABSOLUTELY excited for the shopping I shall get up to!

Loads more photos soon!

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